Chiron Return in Pisces (Age 50 to 52)

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For those of you born in the 1960's when Chiron transited in Pisces, you have already experienced your Chiron Return or will do so prior to 2019.  My Chiron Return doesn't officially begin until mid-March when Chiron reaches 18 degrees, however, the Chiron crisis began for me yesterday.

For those of you not familiar with Chiron, it is an asteroid named after the Greek satyr Chiron, also known as, the Wounded Healer.  Similar to the planet Pluto, Chiron has a strange and uneven orbit (between Saturn and Uranus) so it spends more time in Pisces than in Virgo.  And during most of the 1960's Chiron transited in Pisces, often opposing Uranus/Pluto in Virgo, but Trining Neptune in Scorpio.  Some people born in the 1960's might have experience Saturn conjunct Chiron in Pisces or personal planets conjunct Chiron or personal planets in Virgo opposing Chiron.

Now some astrologers dismiss Chiron because it's not a planet and others call the asteroid a planetoid because it acts like a planet with transits and in aspects found in Natal Charts.  And I can see why some astrologers would rather ignore Chiron because it represents deep wounds we receive in childhood, mainly from our parents that we can never fully heal. But by accepting these emotional or psychic wounds, we gain wisdom and healing powers we can use on others.  The Chiron message is, "Healer heal thyself."

Chiron haunts us, playing creepy music in the background, much like the soundtracks for Hitchcock movies until we reach the age of 50 to 52 when we experience a Chiron Return that forces us to deal with the original wound and anything else we repressed that resonated from that wound. And in my case, we might even experience a physical component such as a foot injury since Pisces represents the foot and Chiron is currently transiting in Pisces (and so is Pisces' planet Neptune).  So let me share my personal story with you to see if it resonates.  After all, I believe personal experiences lend weight to astrological transits. And boy, have I endured some whopper transits in the past several years.

First, I mention that I suffer from a controversial medical condition called Multiple Chemical Sensitivities. I began noticing symptoms in my late 20's but I wasn't diagnosed with the condition until 1997 when I was in my early 30's.  By that point, I had already begun isolating myself from others to avoid exposure to chemicals, I retired from my music career, and began making lifestyle changes. I suffered greatly as anyone would with two planets and and Chiron in Pisces opposing Uranus and Pluto in Virgo and a naughty Mutable T-Cross to deliver the pain.

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However, the MCS I suffered from found its roots in my childhood and I discovered that this medical condition represents my psychic and emotional wound represented by Chiron.  So don't be surprised that an astrologer with a controversial illness embraces a controversial asteroid.  When I look back, other people violated me and my trust by polluting the air that I breathed, water I drank and food I ate.  I have always had an allergy to secondhand smoke of any kind, but people insisted on smoking around me anyway.  I see this as a violation of my personal space and well-being.  And later as an adult, employers violated my health at offices and other spaces by exposing me to secondhand smoke and other chemicals, such as carpet glues and toxic paint fumes.  When I stood up for myself I was either fired or forced to quit the job.  Finding healthy housing was also a traumatic experience.

But during the autumn of 2014 when I found myself between homes again, I felt indignant and outraged that my community offered me no support or safety nets.  If it hadn't been for my parents dishing out cash for me to stay in hotels, I would have ended up on the street which is a death sentence for someone with MCS.  But I did manage to stay on couches in two places and I found other temporary housing until I met a landlord kind enough to rent me a detached studio.  But given the nature of my situation, I repressed my anger especially when I had to accommodate others in ways that were uncomfortable for me.  And if I had asserted my rights at any time, I could have been tossed out in the street.

So along comes Chiron to help me release those repressed emotions that travel all the way back to the earliest violations which left me defensive and guarded.  I could no longer keep the peace just to make other people feel comfortable.  I attended an event for MLK and during the event, anger started roiling inside me until it built into outrage and indignation.  "How dare these people make speeches to stroke their own egos! Where were these folks when I asked for justice in regard to my housing situation? The city officials didn't even bother to return phone calls or respond to e-mails."

And the anger just kept building. So I went for a long walk hoping to walk the anger out of my system.  I prayed for help in dealing with my anger which now bordered on hatred for my community, but for humanity in general because of the violations I experienced as child with Chiron in Pisces (with this placement the child feels invisible and vulnerable, even defenseless and usually placed in a violent situation).  So I kept walking and praying.  And when I worked on my memoir of events that happened to me last fall or worked on an article on people with MCS finding healthy housing, the anguish returned full force.

Then I hit my foot extremely hard on the corner of my futon by accident.  Remember Pisces rules the feet and the pain was so intense (I thought I broke my foot at first), that I cried out in anguish.  All the repressed emotions of the past few months poured out in tears and rage.  Then the rage returned to my childhood and the first violations I experienced to my well-being.  And as I released these emotions, the swelling went down on my ankle and foot.  I also used energy healing that I learned recently along with Dr. Zhi Gang Sha's Soul Mind Body Medicine chants as well as, soaking my foot in Epsom salt.  Then I rubbed Arnica on my foot and ankle.  By morning, the injury had healed around 90 percent.

This is when I made the connection to my upcoming Chiron Return and I marveled at the cleverness of the body to release repressed emotions from my foot and ankle represented by Chiron and my Moon/Saturn in Pisces.  Chiron transited through my Second House and opposes Pluto in my Eighth House which is conjunct Uranus in Virgo.  Chiron sextiles Jupiter in Taurus which is in my Fourth House and Trines Neptune in Scorpio in my Tenth House.  Chiron also Squares Venus (RX) in Gemini in my Sixth House of health, routine and daily environment which were all disrupted when I acquired MCS.

Once I released the rage that came up, an epiphany or vision of how I can help others with MCS in regard to housing surfaced.  I saw myself starting a women's shelter and later a men's shelter for MCS sufferers seeking emergency housing (which happens often).  I first started thinking about a thrift store where I shop and the money it raises for a women's shelter (women who escaped domestic violence) and that sparked the idea for founding a shelter for people with MCS.  After all, I had nowhere healthy to go the times I found myself without a home and many of the rentals are too toxic for people suffering from this condition.

So let's review what a Chiron Return could look like:

• It brings up repressed emotions with roots in a childhood wound
• The wound is emotional and psychic in nature
• Our parents unintentionally or intentionally wounded us
• We can't fully heal this wound but by accepting it we empower ourselves
• The wound has physical components related to the parts of the body represented by the Sign that Chiron transits in the Natal Chart
• An injury, accident or sudden event brings release of repressed emotions associated with the original wound and other situations resonating from the original wound (through patterns and beliefs)
• Once we release the repressed emotions we are shown a life path or share our wisdom in a healing way with others
• Acceptance and forgiveness bring liberation 

I hope by sharing my personal story regarding Chiron helps in understanding the power of this asteroid. While I find it challenging enough working with the ten planets in Natal and Transit charts, I include Chiron because of the deep understanding Chiron's transits and natal chart placement brings to clients.  And Universally, Chiron has formed sextiles with Pluto in Capricorn thus helping us to transform our lives and all lives on the planet.

Also note that avoidance doesn't work with a Chiron Return just like avoidance doesn't prevent a Saturn Return from tipping the proverbial cart.  It's unhealthy to harbor repressed emotions and put on a happy face to please others.  We all possess both darkness and light; often times acknowledging our darkness leads to liberation and our personal truth. For those of you experiencing major Neptune, Pluto, Uranus and Chiron transits (and soon Saturn transits), take heart because if you heed the messages of the planets and take them to heart then you are well on your way to soul mastery. And if you chose to be born in the 1960's for instance, that you chose a path of soul mastery.  Chiron will remind you of this and the gifts you have to offer the world once you liberate yourself from self-repression.

I'm a practicing astrologer and intuitive coach located in Washington State.  I specialize in Pediatric Astrology, Transformational Astrology for adults and Intuitive Coaching for artists and entrepreneurs.  Sign up for a reading at Metaphysics for Everyday Living.